Since the ex got angry with me for telling him the the truth (which by the way he asked questions to which I responded honestly), he opted to completely wipe out my prior website and thus my prior blog. I can understand being angry but the website was my business website – as in it generates business for me.

Ironically, it was the way we met. I needed a website. He made websites. A mutual friend said, “Hey you need; he does; hook up.” Well the hook up took on its other meaning and we did. Also ironically, my website didnt launch until two years into our relationship. It was a birthday present. And it was a great website. I really, really loved it.

So, as he was apt to do, he opted to take away everything that I really, really cared about. We’ve both been playing the role of being nice to one another for the other one’s sake but I can not help but think that we’re really just doin it so that the other one doesnt start pulling out the mean stuff (like shutting down websites and erasing all former blogs from existence) and then, of course, threatening to throw the rest of my remaining items in the apartment on to the curb and letting me fight with the locals to see what I can get.

I’d really put a lot of effort into keeping things from coming to this. But I guess it all comes back to what my mother said during my formative years: “Everytime you try to fix something or help, you just fuck it up even more.” I’ve been trying for years to prove her wrong. Yet, I havent been able to.

At any rate, this is the beginning of my new blog. I will try to find old drafts of what I’ve written before and randomly stick them in here.