I don’t really have anything to write about. I just feel compelled to write. I could write about everything I thought about while I was house sitting for Jen but it’s pretty personal and mostly about the past. Mistakes I’ve made. And finding that hard balance of forgiving myself and still taking responsibility for my actions. It’s a fine line and really hard to do. It’s easy to begin making excuses in the forgiving of self process but I tried to catch myself as often as I could to stop that. I know there are no excuses. I know that. But anyway, I had a lot of time to think and think I did. And when that was too overwhelming I was able to numb myself with cable.  But I’m not able to watch tv like I was there for a while. I don’t even have it on for background noise usually. I live in a very quiet world now. Well…except for Barkley…